you dont deserve a title

I used to love you
REALLY love you
I gave you
200% of what i had
still not much
but
all i had
Was it ever enough?
or
you just woke up one day and said
"Well fuck you, I will make your life hell"
I still don't get it
You told me something like
"You deserve better"
"You will find some girl that will make you happy"
"Things are not so tragic as you make them sound"
"You will get over me"
just the next day i broke up with you
but i get it now
it always had to be about you
you didn't see it coming
you didn't believe it
when
I
said to
You
FUCK YOU I HAD ENOUGH
Obviously i still think about you
nights like that
5:30am
fucked up and loaded
a mere carcass
a mere shadow of myself
and why?
I keep trying to feed myself lies
"It's all because of her"
fuck it I know best...
I am rotten
and everything else
are
mere
excuses