So One-Sided

I watch her from a distance
Her alluring smile
Her amazing laugh
Her hilarious sarcasm
I know I can't have her
I know that its just me.
I know that it might just be fake,
Just infatuation.
But I want to know
I want to know the difference
Maybe she can help...
Or maybe not.
Kidding myself won't do any good.
Denial is even more useless.
Convincing my mind to believe
That someone could love
A worthless rat like me.
Having crushes left and right
When did I get so fucking messed up?
Why am I so desprate?
Love couldn't hurt more
It couldn't wrack anymore searing pain
Or could it?
Maybe.
Maybe not.