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Even the Best Fall Sometimes
Once again they're starting to slowly wash over me
Those soft shadows of depression that no one else can see.
I can feel it simmering deep down inside
The urge to cut and burn until I have new scars to hide.
It seems every time I start to think I'm healed, that my wounds have all been treated and nursed
My monster awakens within me, once again reminding me how I'm truly cursed.
While I try my best to keep control, try to ignore that overwhelming desire
He looks for his special tools, preparing to sate his thirst with blood and fire.
On the outside nothing has changed, and it looks like everything is alright
But inside I'm struggling to keep these chains off, struggling to win this fight.
I know I've improved; throughout the months I've won more, I've gotten stronger
But there's still many days I just want to let him take control, so I don't have to fight another second longer.
Maybe it's wrong to want that, but sometimes I simply don't have the energy to care
That's when he usually comes out, and begins to play and play, until the smell of burning flesh rises in the air.
Even when he doesn't come out, he still enjoys fighting me, trying to break my will
Part of him even likes that I'm stronger, because it gives him a challenge, which for him adds to the thrill.
I must continue to fight this battle, that I know all too well
I just wish I knew if this will ever end, but I guess that's something that only time will tell.
Those soft shadows of depression that no one else can see.
I can feel it simmering deep down inside
The urge to cut and burn until I have new scars to hide.
It seems every time I start to think I'm healed, that my wounds have all been treated and nursed
My monster awakens within me, once again reminding me how I'm truly cursed.
While I try my best to keep control, try to ignore that overwhelming desire
He looks for his special tools, preparing to sate his thirst with blood and fire.
On the outside nothing has changed, and it looks like everything is alright
But inside I'm struggling to keep these chains off, struggling to win this fight.
I know I've improved; throughout the months I've won more, I've gotten stronger
But there's still many days I just want to let him take control, so I don't have to fight another second longer.
Maybe it's wrong to want that, but sometimes I simply don't have the energy to care
That's when he usually comes out, and begins to play and play, until the smell of burning flesh rises in the air.
Even when he doesn't come out, he still enjoys fighting me, trying to break my will
Part of him even likes that I'm stronger, because it gives him a challenge, which for him adds to the thrill.
I must continue to fight this battle, that I know all too well
I just wish I knew if this will ever end, but I guess that's something that only time will tell.
Published 11th Dec 2012
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11th Dec 2012 11:50pm
Haven't written a poem in awhile...can't seem to find the motivation lol. It's not exactly as great as I'd like, but I'm just happy I finally wrote again.
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14th Dec 2012 9:16pm
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16th Dec 2012 6:29am
Well done, and from the title onward, too true.
And while I can certainly appreciate the "some days" feeling, the idea that you do care pretty much sings out-- and the uniform seems to make that even a little more obvious. I wear one something like it.
I don't know as I would sweat how the words come out, for the moment-- just let them come out. Whether you post them or not is not vital to the cause.
As for the write itself, a plain spoken straight run for the way that you would prefer things to be sounds about right-- and again, well done.
Uley
And while I can certainly appreciate the "some days" feeling, the idea that you do care pretty much sings out-- and the uniform seems to make that even a little more obvious. I wear one something like it.
I don't know as I would sweat how the words come out, for the moment-- just let them come out. Whether you post them or not is not vital to the cause.
As for the write itself, a plain spoken straight run for the way that you would prefer things to be sounds about right-- and again, well done.
Uley
17th Dec 2012 2:03pm
Thank you very much DaddyPhantom and Uley-Bone. That's very helpful. Uley what sort of uniform do you wear?
17th Dec 2012 8:24pm
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