I Have Failed

I have tried to move forward
I cannot seem to take the steps
You are still in my head
You are still in my soul

I have tried to figure things out
I cannot make sense of it all
Things don’t add up
Things don’t make sense

I have tried to be angry with you
I cannot bring myself to do so
I still want you
I still need you

I have tried to let go of you
I cannot loosen my grip
Your voice haunts my ears
Your touch haunts my skin

I have tried to find closure somewhere
I cannot locate it anywhere
Too many questions still loom
Too many fears fill my mind

I have tried to be strong
I cannot stand alone much longer
I am too weak
I am too needy

I have tried clinging to hope like a lifeline
I cannot hold this rope much longer
Your memory is too raw
Your absence is too painful

I have tried to forget you ever existed
I cannot stop remembering you
Remembering your eyes
Remembering your smile

I have tried to leave you behind
I cannot succeed in doing so
I still think of you every day
I still wonder if I did something wrong

I have tried
I have failed