I Promise Myself

I'm scared this will never get better. I feel so all alone without a place to call my own. This has to be my fault. As my tears mix with blood & steel I feel satisfied. I'm so good at punishing myself, it's the only thing I've ever been good at. I look in the mirror and wipe away the sorrow in red & black. I promise myself "that was the last time..

You're scared this will never get better. Oh I know you're searching for a place to just call your home. This has to be my fault. As I laugh & hit & scar you I feel satisfied. I always put this guilt on myself. It's the only thing I've ever been good at. I look in the mirror and take off my mask, so concealing of me. I promise myself "that was the last time..

This is all too much to take in, my arm ran out of space. This is all too much to give out, I'm so wrong to force hate. My skin is cut and my heart is bleeding. I won't let you win. My face fades and my smile is waning. I won't live like this.

...it's time for an end."