summery of my love life

There are times when I just wish he was near
I’m confused his motives seem very unclear
Maybe I care to much maybe he’s gonna hurt me
Am I doing right or am I even worthy?

I shake those thoughts it’s all I can do
I hate being left broken and used
To him I’m the type to cheat and lie
He lets me know it’s hard to let pass me by

All I ever wanted was to hold his hand
Tell all my friends that he’s my man
He’s godly to me, that’s all that really matters
Everyone before watched as my heart shattered

I hate the fact that I feel this often
My hard shell has began to soften
I trust him, I do and I ask myself why
When he’s mean to me I feel I need to cry

Nothing I say sticks I’m just wasting my breath
I’ll feel this way until I encounter death
At this rate I’m sure it’ll be soon
I’m just the flower that refused to bloom

He says good things then make them invalid
I don’t have much so I’m offering this ballad
My heart aches from the mistakes I’ve made
I just hope I’m not allowing myself to be played

Im in love with you I just wish you knew
I would literally do anything for you…