Mockingbirds (They're Killers)

I wish I could blame you.

For everything. But, it's

Not your fault. It's mine.

It always was mine.

But, I blamed you for it.

So, this

I suppose,

Is my apology

For pointing my finger at

You and calling you

Guilty. Everyone believed me.

Because, in truth,

I was the one who

Let you break my heart.

You only did what's

Natural for a teenage

Boy to do. And I let you.

So, in a way, it's my

Fault for letting this

One little sin

Tear me apart.

I broke my own heart.

But you were fine, so

I blamed you. I told my

Friends you were a heartless

Asshole who treated me

Like his little whore. It's a lie.

I loved you. I still do.

You just didn't (and don't)

Feel the same way.

So, here I am, ashamed,

That girl who did not

Walk away because I

Assumed you would stay.

It's not like you even

Said that you would.

And I knew from the start

It would all be over in a

Flash.

I just let you cloud up

My mind and break my

Heart and I

Blamed you for being you.

It simply wasn't true.

I'm just so sorry.

I wish I had more to

say. I wish I had a

Way to make it all

Go away. I love you.

And I'm sorry that

I killed a Mockingbird

Who killed me inside.