Wilting roses

You will be the death of me
Then again you give me life
with every impulse you throw at me
Like a thought being processed
Takes a while for me to understand
But when I do, your gone

I have to savor your love
Not take it for granted
like wilting roses on a dining room table
What you do to me , it's special , it's kind
Its everything I need to survive
But you leave and death lingers in my heart
It devours my soul and leaves me helpless
Like a crab with no shell
And I lay still for a while, untouched

Then your eyes cause my heart to beat into rhythm
And I realize your love is the missing piece in my puzzle
You keep me going in this changing world
" did you notice the leaves are falling my love
those colors remind me of- " and you kiss my lips
And nothing else matters anymore
As if I was a child who lost his mother
You cradle my heart
But that has been you since the start
Guess Im in love with you

You said you don't know what love is
If you have to question if you love someone
Chances are you do
I refuse to force you to love me but
You've been acting kinda funny lately
You look at me like a mime does through his invisible glass
empty , hollow like a birds wing , nonexistent
I'm starting to question what we had
These thoughts need to leave
I just can't believe
that my mind can tell me all these things

"my emotions aren't clear"
At least that's what you said
Before you left me , for someone's else's bed
That hit hard , like a nail through plaster
a bat to a cranium
Probably the worst scar to keep with you
Because no matter how much it heals
Heartbreak leaves the biggest mark
I will always love you, so understand this
when I say
you told death to take me away