Invested,trying not to fail

I may seem a lil distant and many wont know why
You see i wear this vest over my chest,cus  my heart was shot wit lies
I bled out and was watched and left for dead
The shooter stood there,and hoovered with no care
He watched me scream with pain unable to bare
crying so hard ,the imprint of tears dried along my eyes
just as i gasped to breathe,He walked along the side of...Me
making sure i was at my finale misery,
But sumwea i found light,and was given a 2nd chance
so is my heart guarded hell the fuck yea
I watch many build this gate of jealousy
Most sit along the fence of insecurity
I drift fading in the background,silent making no noise
scared that if im to loud,My heart wont be safe anymore
You cant assure me im safe,So if i continue to hide out I wont feel anymore pain.This vest is made of all bullshyt and lies,unloyal people who showed hate in their eyes,
So will i wear this vest proudly ,my answer is yes
This way im protected and my feelings wont lay dusty on the next cheaters shelf.