Lost

I am a man in pain, Pain that runs into my inner soul deep it has a hold of me.
Free is what I want to be, but how to let the pain go for I am clueless.
Look into my eyes and they will tell you ever thing you need to know about
The pain that runs me, that has taken control of who I am as its killing me
Slowly I fad away into nothing, Have I lost what I was to what I have become
Is there any hope for me left, or is it gone like the wind that blows outside
How do I light up my fire that is out, How do I get it to burn once again
Is this how I will stay for I do not know any more, if I were to get cut?
Would I bleed will there be pain how could there for the pain that has a hold
Of me now is by far more pain than I have ever felt in my days, Death I do not
Fear for that is sleep that I will never wake from, with it the end of my pain I
Feel today and do not want tomorrow but stuck by the fact that I must carry
Myself on for I cannot leave my kids fatherless. To spill my own blood I can do
If I did not have anyone counting on me to be there as they grow likes plants
Their roots must be strong as they grow. For I am their water and without it
They will be weak how do I do that to them? My wounds run deep and in my
Heart .But I am so much more than an empty life that has been broken down
As I am kept down by my own mine but I am so much more then what is seen
In front of you I will not stand by and let this be my end as I know my days will
End for I have always know I was born only to die.