Jealousy

My hands are shaking
My breathing is fast
I'm wishing this breath would just be my last
My stomach is churning
Into a thousand knots
My mind is a lockdown
Of gut wrenching thoughts
The tears are pouring
I'm lost for words
I'm sobbing silently
Afraid to be heard
I drop my face
To the palms of my hands
I sink to the floor
I can't bare to stand
I feel hysterical
I can't catch my breath
Anything would feel better
I think even death
My blood is racing
Here comes up the rage
But I still cannot move
My own personal cage
My fist connects
With the solid ground
Yet I still don't feel better
But I won't make a sound
As I'm gasping for air
As my insides fall apart
Because into a thousand pieces
You shattered my heart