Pain,tears and fears

      
  It's been ten long years of pain and tears.
  Trying to run away from all of my fears.
  No matter how fast I run, they always stick with me.
  And when I try to have fun, they just won't let me be.
  I don't want to feel this much pain,or cry these tears.
  I'm tired of running away from all of my fears.
  It's every night that I cry cause that's when no one can see.
  And when I try to hide it,
  They want to know what's wrong with me.
  Where are my real friends that will stick with me 'till the end?
  When things get bad, I grab a knife.
  Wanting to just end my life.
  I'm to young to feel this much pain and cry this much tears.
  I shouldn't have any fears.
  I want to be happy.
  I don't want to be sad.
  Why do I always grab a knife, wanting to just end my life?
  I guess it's just because nobody understands me.
  They just won't except me for me.
  Should I go back,
  Or should I stay?
  At least then I will be out of everybody's way.
  I just want a new life.
  Maybe then I won't have to end it with a knife.
  I'm tired of crying,my heart is dying.
  Will i ever have someone love me,
  And except me for who I am?
  Well right now I just don't give a damn.
  I guess I'll find out someday.
  Eventually the right person will come my way.


this poem was written by me when i was sixteen.