Inner Devils

The stone wall's so still
And this line just keeps going on.
If only I could lay some place I would feel no fear.

I'm shattered like this mirror.
With parts of me that can't be found.
Some shards are so sharp it cuts me
When I try to put it back in place.

I see me finished with half of my life, think I'll throw out the rest of it.
There's no net to catch me, forcing you to watch me fall.
So where's god when I needed him?
Am I so low in the masses to not be able to reach him.
They drain every ounce of my sanity till talking to myself feels so normal.
When should I fall will it play this way like this in my absence.
Cause it's what uneases me, it's value towards me.
I see into you're heart to find it's corrupted
I'd lend you my own but really can't risk it.
Find a way, a way into that of daylight.
I want to forget the way we been mistreated.
But I remember those eyes so joyful in disguise
From the darkness of night it never was right.
I just hope it never happens this way.
But how would I ever know.
I won't be what they are.
Let my bones crumble so I can sleep.

In the womb I sit and rust.
Like a toy collecting dust.
Before the dawn I sit and cry, crying out in front the doorstep
Because I'm afraid to go inside. I always pretend I'm home.
I always come past the door that I've come to hate so much.
Especially you take my love, take my lust, take my hurt.
If it's cold I'm feeling better to know something dead like me.
It's just me then there's you in a world controlled by our inner devils.
I'am choking from this leash that they're pulling making sure I stay close to home.

I've sold my soul
To someone else who I thought was right.
It's no longer mine
The chance of change I've never seen...