Fading Shadow

Where did it all go wrong ? When did i start to die ?
Was it when i was 13 and each day i told a lie ?
A lie that i'd been to school & was doing well at my work
I could'nt really tell my parent i'd not been cos im a jerk
4pm i would sneak into my room, so my parents would'nt get a whiff
Not of smoke, that was kids stuff, it was the glue that i used to sniff
Trying furiously to get rid of the smell, eating onions, mints & stuff
But nothing got rid of that smell, looking back those days were tough
now 25 years have passed and im in exactly the same place
A 38yr old dickhead, oh what a fucking discrace
Been there, done it and even once was on the needle
By fuck we would have injected asprin, if they would have only made it illegal
I'd like to say "i've seen the error of my ways" but then again, i'd only be lying
And one thing i know the road that im on will only lead me to dying
A fading shadow is what i've become, but this is'nt the life for me
I just want a normal life and to grow old gracefully.