Inspired by you

I have to say i have just read an author on here
who has given me the  courage to write what i fear
I am so fucking angry I could smash up my car
drive like a lunitic scream out  unseen scars

I want to drive out, into the night right now
for my cunt of a husband has no idea how
he has left me feeling so raw
when he left me for that fucking whore

it was years ago but its hit me like a truck
after reading your poems i now dont give a fuck
who reads it , what they think of me
why the fuck didnt i kill her she made my life a misery

she took away my husband after id been with him for 25 years
how fucking dare, the cow, if only she was here
I would stab her and hurt her so fucking much
she wont be able to walk, of ever recieve love

But she got it from him, she wasnt the only one to blame
you see he left me for her, its my hidden shame
she had kids you know, and she knew i couldnt
didnt think she would ring me and tell me.
i shouldnt feel evil, crazy and mad

but she rang me from work and told me by phone
said, shame you cant have kids love, your hubbys at my home
i rang him and said tell me shes lying
he didnt
I  dropped
I couldnt stop crying
I thought i was dying
what a cunt she was, but im still in love with him

he came back for a while, then returned to the bitch
who i would like to stitch
with cuts from glass bits

after 8 years on, this is the first ive been true to self
kept all this inside or put it on the shelf
fuck not no more
i used to score to numb the pain
but im fucking sober and clean which is great but the
awful fucking pain is back again

oh fuck her im sober she can die for all i care
i just know for me, to drink i dont dare
as i would die and she aint worth it
as i know i cant stop, shes just shit

wouldnt give her the satisfaction
shes ugly what ever was the attraction

sex... of course it always is, and i was to pissed to notice it
but not now i say im sober and clean thats it...

so now my angers out, thank god for this site
ive started to make my new life aright
im worth it you see
i now beleive in me
i dont need no cunt
to make me see...
as he eventually, came back to me...

On a positive note, i did this all in my head
never met her just spoke, or she may be dead...

Oh no not me a great softie, thats me
just riddled with anger that im starting to set free..
As now we're apart
But best friends like from the start...