Given Up

Someone help me I am fading,
Life is losing it's already few perks,
I wake up every morning hurting,
Desperate for some trace of love,
Misunderstood and heartless I trudge,
Singing ballads of woe never gone,
Barely sane I stay this way,
I'm tired of this life I live.

I never get past these things in my head,
Things I've done wrong, things I should of did,
Punishment I always give to myself,
Inside my mind, a jumbled mental mess,
I am the immortal in Hell and past is my torture,
One small sin repeated over and over,
Lies fill my soul of darkened shadows,
Why do I sit and wait for help that will never come?

No one understands my mind,
Not the sweetest people nor the doers of crime,
My life is a foreign language to all,
They all shrug, say move on, there's no need  to cry,
The things they say are easier said than done,
They know nothing of my like,
But no matter my spirit's been broken,
I've given up this fight for life.