I needed you!

Lost, alone, angry and hurt...
I wasnt to blame, my health was the dirt...
I tried to get hold of it,tried to get by...
I hoped you would help me, you just made me cry...
I no I was awful, I no I was mean...
It wasnt my fault, was the illness we seen...
I tried to hold back, I couldnt see clear...
The damage ive done, I just cannot bare...
I hoped you would see, I hoped you would stay...
But you thru me aside, you pushed me away...
I couldnt stop crying, I was so alone...
My life fell apart, I have nothing to show...
I kept getting worse, I couldnt control...
Your mates they kept saying, I just was a mole...
I never was that, im not now so bad...
I have medication for what they say, is mad...
I suffer an illness, its not all my fault...
I needed you so much, you just did the bolt...
And now you hate me, you wont see the me...
It wasnt all my fault, its illness you see...
I no I was horrid, I no I was cruel...
But I really loved you, I wasnt a fool...
If you had a sickness, id stay through with you...
I wouldnt have knocked you back when you'r blue...
When I love someone, its for through it all...
Thats how I no, I was never for you.