You pushed me

I feel disgusted by your presence
dont come any closer
im lying here closing my eyes
holding them tighter than ever
this is just a nightmare
just a fucking nightmare

your not real
youve taken everything
ripped apart everything i loved
youve destroyed it and taken what you needed
now im all thats left
if you think itll be easy i promise it wont
you wont leave here unscathed

i used to be afraid of you
but now your just a mental image
embedded im my mind
the thing i see when i sleep
the monster behind closed eyes

i cannot escape for some odd reason
ill take this knife and cut your throat
its my turn to be the monster now

ill stitch your eye sockets closed
you cant see the evil that youve created
ill stitch your lips into a line and peel off the skin
so you can taste the blood that took away my childhood
ill cut off your limbs and hang you by your hair
all i wanted was my fucking life back

of course lifes not fair
i understood that by the time i turned 2
and ever since then ive been let down
my expectations mustve been too high for you
its all my fault
like those fucking looks you give me when i dont do something right
i need room to breath, to grow
but you didnt give it to me
didnt give me enough

buying me off and handing me money
that wasnt love