Dear Vida

As the days progress I constantly find myself on the opposite side of the spectrum from the rest an irrelevant dysfunction continually searching for a balance through the stress matters of the heart I must admit is the only cause of interest I truly posses a walking contradiction in the pursuit of happiness and nothing less I live with the best of intentions yet a purpose is something that I haven't been able to address misguided at times like any other yet I won't point fingers I'm unlike the next an abstract individual from the day I began this long and winding quest born under the aquarius sign at the end of my days clarity is what I hope to find some understanding to this over demanding place not many can see past the surface I seem to be constantly missed like the suns early rays throughout the years it's been an uphill battle you can't seem to notice it past the welcoming face the truth is I have quite a handful of problems that will forever have a bitter taste held in a constant confusion I can't help, but feel misplaced maybe one day it will all make perfect sense maybe one day ill  loose the dependence to these words an be content with the fact that im the black sheep in the herd maybe one day ill be as free as a bird.....