Is This How It Ends

As I lay awake at night, too afraid to sleep.
All my reasons have died because of something I done.
You have the choices I don't, either take or you won't
I'll ensure their is a change depending on what you decide.
Just break, crumble apart the defences you built
It can't protect you from what is coming your way.
I keep on going the distance to the points of endangerment
Because what I'm looking for is past the limits I'm given.
Your neck is inside the scythe to pull away has a price.
With whats good in my heart it's what I'm willing to give.
 
Is this how it ends, is this how it ends, why?
Is this how it ends, it's how I made it.
Rather be a monster than a feelingless machine  
Will it matter? will anything be any better?
 
Treasures turn into blood now blood is my value.
In a bottle so fragile am'I enough to hold it?
How much more can I take before I shatter to pieces?
Cause now you take the words I say twisting, disorting them.
This pain is my proof to show I'm still alive.
Mental trauma to the heart can drive a person off the edge.
You judge me on what you see, so thats what I'll be.
The fault belongs to me you can the guilt.
Is there anything thats real but ruin and salvation?
I'm caught in between a war that just seems so endless.
Your neck is inside the scythe to pull away has a price  
And once there's nothing left to give, I'll close my eyes.
 
And here's where you stop
You stop to listen, the endless distance.
No more hurt, I've had about enough.
I couldn't endure no more, so I'll gladly close my eyes.
And here's where you stop
You stop to listen, the endless distance.
Is this alright? maybe this isn't the only way
But I've given up inside, not looking forward to another day.
 
Is this how it ends, is this how it ends, why?
Is this how it ends.
I couldn't say I'm sorry...