I won't break

tear me apart
ripe out my heart
tear out the stitches
so sick of all the voices, all the whiny pitches
burning alive
tell me how will I survive?
survive this burn?
survive this fiery yearn?
he says he wants to play
doesn't care that I have a man, he wants to stay
he wants to pin me against the wall
hold my legs around him so I won't slip or fall
he wants my body nothing else
a single night to please his aching self
I see the pain in his eyes
though he tries so hard to hid them with his web of lies
he doesn't want to hear a no
he is hot, willing, and oh so ready to go
my man is so far away
how long until I'm not able to turn away? to not let him stay
I could cheat but that would be excepting defeat
he looks my body up and down
he doesn't notice the pain in my eyes or in my frown
he wants a night not forever
he wants to use me for his own pleasure
I know what he want I know his thoughts
wish I could refuse these adrenaline shots
feel like I'm being bent and he wants me to break
but i wont break or bend for my man's sake
I'll fight to the end
cuz i don't want to be that guys sex friend
I'll lock my door
not let him get close so he can try more
so tear me apart
ripe out my heart
cuz I won't be bending, I won't be breaking
I don't care cuz for my man I will be waiting
he'll come for me someday
someday he'll come and he won't have to go away
one offers a night
to give me my addiction, to give me pleasure, to hold my body tight
but the other wants forever and infinity
and I am not going to ruin it with infidelity