Am i a monster?

what am i ? i'm not sure what i am
people say i am a monster
are you perpared to agree or disagree
you say i have a illness but
your not sure of a cure
i am more afraid of the cure then
the illness
i ask the doctor if their was an invisiable
force responseable for my action's
i made a bold move dating your daughter
you were left wondering what sort
of person i was when you meet me
i was not the guy you dreamed of or hoped for your daughter
last weekend i brought her home feeling tipsy feeling no pain we made love moving in a perfect rhyme you told me i
deserved a reward we drop acid something happened to me
ripples running though my veins i got a cold chill
i decided to end and take my own life i could not
wait to see the rewards on the other side i put a
rope with a nice noose around my neck jumped
that was the end of my life
she came down off her buzz she was never the same
her dad was left wondering if i was a monster