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why me?
Have you ever felt like your whole world was crumbling in your hands?
Have you ever felt like there was no one there?
Like theres nothing you can do to help?
Thinking why does everything have to happen to you?
All this goes through my young mind as I try to process it
I cry out but no one can hear
I act as if im fine but im slowly dieing on the inside
I call out to god but no reply
I dont know where to turn and who to trust
I just sit there with no remorse
Why him
why the one person i cant talk to and trust?
But as everyone says "everything happens for a reason"
why make him go through all this pain?
All this sufering
Day by day i can slowly see him passing
I dont know what to do but cry
I dont show that im in pain I hide it deep down inside
When we get that one call that turned my life upside down
I was so young i didnt know what to do
I watch him as he lays there
We cant do anything to help
It slowly eats me up inside everyday knowning I had to say good bye
I was so afraid i didnt know what to do
I had the chance to say goodbye
But I refused
I regret that one decision everyday
The one last chance i had to say these three word " I love you"
But i couldnt get them out
After that I was sent home with my brother
I recieved a call from my mother
As soon as i left he passed away
I didnt know what to do or who to turn to
I cry everytime i think of him
Why did he have to die?
I wish I could go back in time and do it all over again
But theres nothing i can do about it now
I wish i had someone there to lead me
Someone to comfort me
Still till this day I ask why
I cant even imagine what would have happened if we knew sooner
Maybe he would have still been here
I still ask god why him?
But i will never know
Everyone tells me " everyone has to go someday"
But this was to soon
He will always be with me
He wasnt just my grandfather he was my bestfriend
When i lost him my whole life changed
Im no longer that sweet happy little girl
Im now a confused teen searching for help
I dont have anyone to talk to or trust
I hold everything inside and now its all braking me down
I honestly think if he was still her i wouldnt be the person I am today
Because of him I know to trust no one
I know you cant depend on anyone but myself
I dont need anyone to bring me down
He taught me that is i want something to strive for it.
They say only you can make yourself stronger
From that day on I realized I dont need anyone but myself
I will never be the same from that day on
I hate myself more and more everyday that passes
Have you ever felt like there was no one there?
Like theres nothing you can do to help?
Thinking why does everything have to happen to you?
All this goes through my young mind as I try to process it
I cry out but no one can hear
I act as if im fine but im slowly dieing on the inside
I call out to god but no reply
I dont know where to turn and who to trust
I just sit there with no remorse
Why him
why the one person i cant talk to and trust?
But as everyone says "everything happens for a reason"
why make him go through all this pain?
All this sufering
Day by day i can slowly see him passing
I dont know what to do but cry
I dont show that im in pain I hide it deep down inside
When we get that one call that turned my life upside down
I was so young i didnt know what to do
I watch him as he lays there
We cant do anything to help
It slowly eats me up inside everyday knowning I had to say good bye
I was so afraid i didnt know what to do
I had the chance to say goodbye
But I refused
I regret that one decision everyday
The one last chance i had to say these three word " I love you"
But i couldnt get them out
After that I was sent home with my brother
I recieved a call from my mother
As soon as i left he passed away
I didnt know what to do or who to turn to
I cry everytime i think of him
Why did he have to die?
I wish I could go back in time and do it all over again
But theres nothing i can do about it now
I wish i had someone there to lead me
Someone to comfort me
Still till this day I ask why
I cant even imagine what would have happened if we knew sooner
Maybe he would have still been here
I still ask god why him?
But i will never know
Everyone tells me " everyone has to go someday"
But this was to soon
He will always be with me
He wasnt just my grandfather he was my bestfriend
When i lost him my whole life changed
Im no longer that sweet happy little girl
Im now a confused teen searching for help
I dont have anyone to talk to or trust
I hold everything inside and now its all braking me down
I honestly think if he was still her i wouldnt be the person I am today
Because of him I know to trust no one
I know you cant depend on anyone but myself
I dont need anyone to bring me down
He taught me that is i want something to strive for it.
They say only you can make yourself stronger
From that day on I realized I dont need anyone but myself
I will never be the same from that day on
I hate myself more and more everyday that passes
Published 21st Oct 2012
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