Shudder

"I wince at what my life was, not what it could have been"

Everything I see around me
Is the world I once created
Not the one I can rebuild
The wounds left when I fell
Have yet to heal
So can I ask you for help?
Having a little trouble
Conversing in my head
I've been torn down repeatedly
From what I used to be
Confidence Ambition both allude me
I fight so hard to regain that luster
Used all the strength I can muster
Yet somehow the numbness takes affect
Left me with nothing, just an empty chest
The answers escape me
The questions are confusing
Is this what I choose to be?
I had dreams, I had goals
10 steps back from what use to know
How do I regain the fire that burned so fierce?
Do give up on all these past years?
I should be so much further along
How do I reclaim what once was?
My life filled with simplicity, success
Now complication knows my address
It never seems to smooth out
I've lost faith, I'll ever figure this out.