vain

Rays shining through my curtain
Birds singing annoyingly from not so far
I rise as I hope this day holds something
Special,
But with no smile in my face I rise
With no determination I try,
With a fantasy outlook I wish I could fly
Reality came hitting my mind
With a thump so loud and pain that grinds,
No job, fustration, depression, disappointment
That's my daily meal
I think now as I sleep
I woke up in vain!