pushed to limits

I was pushed to the limits
my thoughts were disturbing
was i orchestrating a path of destruction
i have no mercy for anyone who crosses me
folks are always confused duh!could i
be keeping a score card all these years
was i a ticking time bomb
was i really ready for a suicide mission
was i prepared to outshine folks just
one more time
was i dead serious and burned out
on life
was this going to be a bad scene
the worst scene you have ever scene
or was i just indulging my depressed mind
was i a ticking time bomb
or was i enjoying a fantasy
i could be out of my mind
would you ever think the same about me
would i go to heaven or hell
Bang it was over
folks were crying and asking why
folks ask what went wrong with me
did i finally flip and go over the edge
everyone said i was a strange outcast
always dressed in black and keep to myself
folks read the note i left
no one will ever push me around no more!