Mad

I had done no wrong, so how is it that i'm mad?? truth is i had been dreadfully nervous for i was accuse of such horrific crimes and yet i still take the blame.. I had never wanted to hurt her but it was her eye that drove me to do it. I had even fallen in love upon her smile but all the while, deep down in my soul i fancy her dead! but  how is it that i'm mad? i heard all the angels in heaven and the demons below the sea; they all wanted her dead! so how calmly i can pen the whole story.. but after i finish will you still deem me mad? because of the whispers in my head?