Ruby (from the vault)

Pulse, pulse, pulse you're my distant ghost,
and right now I need you the most.
Need your warmth in a bed so cold, my own spirit
to hold and you could feed my host.
But you're nowhere to be found and no one has
seen you around, I feel so alone like I am six
feet under the ground, taking in my last breath,
and making my last sounds.
Well there is room for you here so come down......

I hope you found your peace, unpacked your suitcases
of grief.
Burnt it all on a cliff to a wind that blows east.
I wonder did you slay your beast, then throw him in
the ocean where the ocean's meet?
Did your legs grow stronger when you found your feet,
or did you cry out for me in your restless sleep?

A tortured girl all alone in the world, looking for
love inside a concrete hell.
Along came a friend to lend a helping hand, but his
own issues stopped him from hanging around.
What a waste of a man, crawled back inside my can,
floated on a sea of guilt and drowned.

Ruby is your name and I'll remember it forever.
The girl whose angel wings had lost all their feathers.
Then blood flowed free, from those cuts so deep,
my heart missed a beat and I fell to my knees.
Tears filled the street and life felt so bleak,
knowing my soul had been shamed with secret to keep.

"Ruby I left because of me, not because of you"