Some Advice Well Heard

Be yourself are words
that have been uttered as
many times as I love you
in my ears.

They are words that are
double standard.

Either you are acting too
much of something else
or you are too reserved.

Which of it am I?

I think I rely too heavily
on another sometimes, always,
always begging for an opinion
so I can make myself 'better'
at being me.

How silly is that?
Relying on someone else to help
me become better at me?
Seriously?

So today, I went to the barber,
chopped off all my hair. Not
metaphorically, but literally.
I'm near enough bald.

I let a man stick a needle through
my lip.

He wore gaudy gauges in his ears
and was covered head to toe in
tattoos and piercings.

He was sexy, so I wasn't scared
when he stabbed me, though I was
a bit hurt.

Today I was myself because today
I was given advice to rely on me.

And that advice was well received.