shadow of the mind thoughts

I can feel it inside
there’s something in the basement of me
I can usually lock it away with music but lately that’s been losing its meaning
I could self indulge in the laughter of life
but as I read  Humor won’t save you; it doesn’t really do anything at all
it was all I had but now that has left me just as childhood had
ever since I found out Disney was a lie
maybe terrorists were on to something when they wanted to kill everyone
does death bring people to a better place
is earth another places heaven
if that was true I would hate to think what they envisioned hell to be like
maybe when people have guns or have suicidal thoughts its just there way
there way of coping with this "heaven" it just sounds so funny in my head
I’m sure these thoughts have arrived within your head
if not please take the time to think about it
you might learn something or I’m wasting your time but then if I was why did you read this poem?