WHERES THE ANSWER?

 In the rain I walk alone
no direction . . .

pain grows
The wind blows
The leaves fall
Thunder strikes the wall

Days are never bright
In the direction of my life
I feel I have no sight
Everything . . . is just not right.
Yet alive I feel dead inside.

Why is it in my pain I feel there’s an indescribable comfort.
Why is it with every friend comes
Lies, hurt, and betrayal.
With every relationship there’s
A sweet start, ending in a broken heart.

Why is it my mom never stayed, and my grandma couldn’t keep her hands & belt off of me.
Bruised more emotionally, and mentally then physically.
Even in my youth I wondered if i died would anyone even miss me.
Wondering if there is a God did his love and mercy forget me.

Someone please answer me!

On my knees crying, as my soul is suddenly dying.
If life is a test, I am barely passing.

Why is it I keep falling for the same lies Daddy applied.
Bags packed, he never showed.
Holding back the tears, because real men don’t cry, for so I’ve been told.
Becoming less human each day, and more like a skeleton mold with a broken soul.

Someone please answer me!
Tell me why is it I cant recognize love?
It’s unknown to me.
Maybe because no one ever showed me.
I’d do anything just to be a baby again and have my mother just hold me.
But the past is the past, and the future is so far away.
Too much to worry about.
I still search for the answers of today.
Just waiting on someone to answer me.