Love Struck (Song)

Chorus:
I thought I found the one but it was all dumb luck
I was love struck but no one told me love sucks

I was excited when I first felt cupid's itch
Until I realized he led me to a stupid bitch
Talks like she loves me but actions say otherwise
If you really loved me you wouldn't need other guys
Right? So what am I supposed to do?
You intentionally hurt me when I get close to you
Why is it if I treat you like my princess
In return you squash me like I'm some insects?
When I reflect some you've shown no respect hun
I can't keep a relationship goin this direction
Girl, If I treated you likewise you'd break down
The way my friends laugh at me I'd make a great clown
The social aspect isn't the most bothersome
I represent good guys as an act of martyrdom
If I can't complete you in the way that I treat you
What's the formula to compete with these dudes?
Change that train a thought it brought me pain a lot
For all I care these days man that dame can rot
I walk around now detached and superior
But that mindset doesn't match the interior
I'm kinda torn, thinking so much my mind is worn
Plus I haven't cried like this since when I was born
So much invested time I gave the best of mine
But I'm tired of it now so a rest is fine
Hoping down the line maybe you'd have a change of heart
And you probably felt the same which is the strangest part
I can't take it anymore the constant bickering
keeps producing rage and the product's sickening
A decaying relationship founded on half passion
Which isn't enough to keep us afloat, now that's crashin
I love her but at the same time I hate her
Why mess around we were meant for something greater

I know we had our issues and lotsa fights
I was pissed gripping knuckles till they got all white
Probably sent you home in tears a lotta nights
I apologize for that cause it's not all right
I shoulda held my temper over melted embers of passion
I don't want that broken shell remembered as action
A dismembered reaction, far from internal emotion
But overwhelmed by raging infernal commotion
There I go again, lost in vocabulary
When I talk about this I get so mad it's scary
The burden I had to carry in my capillaries
Wish it was imaginary like chats of fairies
But it seems to me there's only one real issue
Your god doesn't want me with you, that's why I miss you
Just briefly, I hate the holy institution
That says belief in it is the only restitution
The only one solution, the only path to joy
The only place you should go to try and catch a boy
The only place to learn about truth and morality
The only place to add meaning to mortality
The only source of authority and guidance
Ignore your heart there's no reason for compliance
See, none of that is true, I wish I could teach ya
But you're so caught up in the word of the preacher
I get it though your from a small community
Which practices and preaches close quarters unity
For straying, you'd lose support from your family
So it's impossible for you to be with me happily
We're a couple of sorry victims of circumstance
We mesh well, figured our fiction was worth a chance
I'm sitting here fuming, so close to snappin
I can't really tell if we were supposed to happen


Sometimes it's hard to know do you care or pretend
I stare at my pen wondering where does it end
Interlocked and woven but my hearts ripped open
The only one foolish enough to still be hoping
When push pull evolves into shove - embrace
When I hate your belief system but love your face
When I can't pick between violence and compassion
When all we're left with is silent interaction
Laughs cut away cause neither know what to say,
Abandon decision and heartbreak for another day
We keep stalling and pushing back the deadline
Trying so hard to ignore the fact that it's been time
Shoulda treated me better but you made an attempt
I shoulda held my tongue more to sway the contempt
You taught me baseline attraction isn't enough
You need mirrored ideology, religion and stuff
You taught me how to commit to an individual
Your thoughts are residual, pure clean and original
You taught me it's ok to give people a second chance
That life events can come along and wreck your plans
Thanks for the times you pushed me without being pushy
For opening your true self and being mushy
I hope I taught you what to expect from a lover
So you can find who you need and respect one another
I hope I taught you that love can get serious
You can break hearts apart just by being curious
We had a lot of good memories during this
And when I step back I'm not even close to furious
This song was supposed to be about hate and hurt
But it came out like this, huh. just the way it works
Struggling to accept the whole scene mentally
Cause in reality we know it wasn't meant to be