With a Bitter Tongue

 it'll get better in time is what they all say
but what they dont know is ive had nothing but time
22 years ive been living day by day
waiting for that some day day, that some sunny day
as if I'm foolish enough to believe
that there is a Messiah coming my way

I just wanna feel some sunshine
just to feel like it's my time
to flourish when is it my time
I have no hope left and with every inch of my charred breath
all I wanna do is have my soul reborn and nourished
Cherished, but I'm washed up and buried

ALONE
in a dark light
Fuck yes its a dark
moonless night, 22 years
i damn my very breath and bite my tongue
"oh but youre so young"
then why do I feel like an ageless demon?
drifting through worlds like an addict on ether
shifting worlds, a souless shape shifter
hell no, I know it makes no sense to you either
but that's the irony

no one understands the grand scheme of things
gods will is not done on those who don't believe
so thats why I bite my tongue
Why I'm coming undone
Because I see no visions of better days
so
how how can they predict my future now
when its done nothing but fall apart

apart

I don't need an angel to help me up this muddy stream
what I need is a miracle but all I want to do is scream
out loud and clear out this eternal cloud
But I know better  
what I need is a teacher
no fuck that i don't need a preacher
I need
a soul of gold to hold my hand
through the dark times and
help me get to that path
where I want to grow old
Because right now its a struggle
constantly feeling like i'm a 3 ring circus
a freak underneath so just watch me juggle

Right now I just want the nail the coffin shut and call it case closed
I feel my vital signs droppin
so who is going to come and save me?
Damn me
DAMN all of you
a flightless demon on the path of endless
eternity, feeding on the souls
and destroying everything that comes my way
King Midas at his finest I guess you could say
No just leave me be
I've had my chance and God wants nothing to do with me
Bite my tongue, bite it hard
Soon I'll show everyone the depth of these scars
In the mean time just stay far away
far where the sun can't reach a damndable soul like me
tell me,
tell me,
for the sake of my fucking sanity,
who is going to save me and be part of this raven black heart?
Shit.
Nevermore.