Freefall

(it's three fucking AM and I'm tired as hell. I wrote this in 10 minutes and I'm sorry it's shit. I just didn't want this goddamn account to be so empty)

I curl up
Tight
Hugging my legs
Hold my breath
Until I burn
Liquid acid in my veins

I can't
Not again
Because I promised
No more
No more paper hidden in the trash
Wrapped around itself
Hiding
Secrets

But I want
To see the red
Lovely
Like tears
Weeping from lines
Pretty lines
Scarlet letters
Of pain
Darling friend

I touch it
Lightly
Sweet and fond
Then press
Before I know
Seeing it swirl
Down the drain
And I want to grab it
Catch it in a jar
Hold it to me
That color
Inviting me in

Someday
I tell myself
Someday
Maybe
But
But
But