Razor Death

I lay awake blade in hand.
I know what runs through you blood,
you keep me locked inside.
Razor blade breaks my skin,
as the Death smiles so boldly, high on
the pain; won't stop now---
Never felt more alive.
Do you see what you've done
you were the angel of my eye, now
you have damned me to live in a
world with out you.
Blood streams down my face, tears of
joy mix in with it...
I once thought I knew what was best for me,
but you consume my head, my very soul.
I rather feel pain instead of losing you.
Never felt more on the edge, you've gotten
under my skin, please dont give up.
Now my trip has only just begun; running blindly
without you here - I fall from the edge

Now I'm dead inside.