Confusion

what to do
what to do

deep cuts for me
and a big smile for you

you enjoy my pain?
do you like my cries?

staring at me through those dark eyes
i cut even deeper trying to clear my mind

i try not to let out a shout
as the dark red flows you dont even pout!

to never hurt me is what you swear
im confused dear "friend"

to stand and watch me die
without blinking an eye

did you ever care?
or is it like they said just a stupid dare?

im sick of these lies
im sick of this pain

im ending my life so honey please dont strain
to get those fake tears of yours to drain.

ill see you in hell
i DO NOT wish you a fond farewell

i hope your life treats you like dirt
just like you treated mine

one last look at your emotionless face
i start to be glad i chose this fate

no more pain
no more sorrow

as i die in front of you now
so does the confusion

now i know
even though your not a ginger you truely have no soul