My life!

Born into a family...
A mum and dad, and five more see...
My three brothers, two sisters too...
With all that many, who'd be blue?...
But life isnt all you see...
Well it really wasnt at all for me...
Mum and Dad, they worked alot...
Being the youngest, alot I got...
Sisters hated that you see...
They werent very nice to me...
But brothers were, not so mean...
They tricked me, tho I wasnt keen...
They played tricks and fooled around...
Hiding places, without a sound..
Out they'd jump and make me scream...
But all in fun, they were never mean...
But at 14 I lost my dad...
Grief and anger, I was so sad...
For years and years, I never healed...
My pain was hidden, so concealed...
My brother he was there for me...
The other one, he didnt see...
Just his pain of his illness sort...
With no acceptance, he just fought...
Isnt fair to place your pain...
The rest of us, was us you blamed...
A child, a teen, an adult too...
Was up to me to wetnurse you...
Selfish, that is what you were...
And to this day your pains my blur...
To have a life without the stress...
To fight your illness, is just a mess... 
I lost the other brother loved...
As for the sisters, no thanx gov!...