Ex Issues

I never meant to hurt you;
that wasn't my desire.
You never meant to hurt me either;
I was still tossed into the fire

I should have gave up;
or at least kept fighting.
Alas, my heart was crushed;
and it was my own fault that I was dying.

I gave you up for happiness;
but now that is gone.
Why do I still think of you;
maybe you were the one.

I let you get away;
at least that is what I feel.
Still, the drugs and drinking pushed me away;
you were in fantasy; I was with the real.

It was hard for me to say no;
when you asked for me back.
Hell if you had only asked earlier;
who knows where I could be at?

My choice wasn't simple;
like only door one or door two.
I chose her guiding light;
instead of the pain I had with you.

The pain is my own fault;
I take the blame.
Maybe I wouldn't have fought for you;
when you had him; if I was completely sane.

Love does that I guess;
turns the normal into weird.
I chose what would make me happy;
yet now, I am here.