A few of my fears

I don't want to become my father,
This is one of my many fears,
Its one of my deepest,
One that causes so many tears.

I'm afraid of something else,
I haven't told many,
People that will miss me when I'm gone,
I fear I haven't got any.

I'm afraid of the fact that I need her,
I fear she won't come back,
That she'll find someone new,
On my heart leave another crack.

I'm afraid of never making something of my life,
That I'll never amount to much,
That I'll eventualy break,
Everything I touch.

I'm afraid of never being good enough,
That I'll never make loved ones proud,
That my music will start to fade,
Never making another sound.

I'm afraid to look in the mirror,
I don't know what I see,
What if I stand there too long,
Realize it isn't me.

Im afraid I'll never accomplish,
What I was put here to do,
That I'll never fulfill my purpose,
I won't be able to protect you.

I fear that I'll break my promise,
That I'll cut once again,
I am an addict after all,
I'll let my destruction begin.

I fear myself as well,
That I'll never know who I am,
That I'll fail at my life,
And no one will give a damn.

There you have it,
Just a few of my fears,
All of them cause me pain,
Many bring me tears.