broken again

my hearts broken again
i gave it away so freely it feels like a sin
i loved and lost and wanted to die
so i said goodbye
but people love me and wouldn't let me leave
now i wanna pull up my sleave
and morn love the  best way i know how
but my ways are wrong i know the now
i'm sick i'm demented but i don't care
i'll just have to change what i where
to hide the cuts the burns make my outside like my inside
i'm told to eat but i can't i won't not tell i'm as wide as my dried up heart
i'm dieing inside i just wanna do it on the outside to part
with this world this reality this pain this love still strong
i just wanna be gone
in a box with dirt surrounding me how can you people love me
don't you see
i'm selfish i'm curl i put me before you
i did nothing for you too
i put trying to get through pain
before any of you i know i musent be sane
how can you care i know i should beath slane
i don't care as much as you think about you i'm really just a stane
i care because i see parts of me in you and i know what its like
i just wanna be on a spike
dead and cold
so i don't have to face the dread thats so old
so cold my heart broken again
it should be a sin
i'm told there is someone ment for me
ment to fill my dent
my space
where everything sucks my love to no end that place
that horrible place i know i was ment for loving another
not ment build designed deprived of smothering
another with my love that drowns any other
but i shant believe such a promos not even if it'd be from a brother
i'm sorry i'm so cold
i've just been aged so old