torn

last night i made the same mistake
i picked up that phone
i let her work her magic
let her clam me down
talk me down
i was so ready to go
ready to end this
but no i let her talk me down
i know she loves me shes my best friend
but i didn't wanna stay i still don't
i live because others need me alive
but i've wanted to die for so long
no
not really die just stop the pain
any way i can
i just wanted to leave
i don't see what she sees in me
i don't see what anybody else sees
all i see is a winy self centered bitch that needs to be put down
if i cared and was so full of love i won't try to kill myself
i just hurt three people and i don't feel the empathy i know i should
cuz i'm a peace of shit
i made them cry i made them fear i made them hurt
and all i want is to die
so how can you say i'm nice
when i just hurt you
i fucked up but i wish i went through with it
i'm so sick
i'm so fucked up inside
god help me