Something I Will Never Be

I've seen all my friends photos..
I've looked at them all..
Each are gorgeous.. No flaw in my eyes..
Perfectly skinny, beautiful eyes,
Perfect makeup, wonderful hair
And beautiful skin..
Then I look at myself..
A whole list appears of
What I am...
I don't have a perfect body,
I don't have perfect makeup, wonderful
Hair, and most certainly, not
Flawless skin...
I am disgusted,
I hate myself, I hate my appearance..
I try to fix my hair and smile,
But then realize, it won't do..
I'm not beautiful...
I envy their goddess
Like features.. I'm not beautiful..
I sit in shame... People
Say I am, but that's only to make me
Feel better... I know they are lying..
That's all they ever do...
The word beautiful,
Is something I will never be..