Armour

I've wore this for a while now
People have a hard time
believing that I have struggled
with feeling protection
It seems hard for them
to tell that there
were problems that I had faced
I only wore this to keep people
away
Mostly men due to the fact
that women
were often hurt when they were a smaller size
is what i believe then
yet as i grew older it wasn't just smaller woman
I faced a problem
Can I lose the Armour ?
Become uncomfortable
with the stares and glares that come along
Or to stay safe I hang out with woman smaller in size
So I could drown in the crowd
I would my clothes baggy to keep guys attention away
As a girl who was once a tomboy i struggled
to make sense of the attention i received from men
So with each pound I put on I felt better
about taking attention off of me
i hated the spotlight that found me
Once I went threw puberty
So I wore extra baggy clothes
Wouldn't think of most guys as more than friends
Now I struggle to lose the Armour
But laugh myself cause it was always there
Yet it wasn't the weight