I Miss You

I woke up that morning, positive and strong,

Had just been on holiday, first day back at the job.

On my mind, was to ring you as soon as the clock hit five,

You loved my stories, I felt comfort in your voice.

However, midday I got that dreaded phone call.

My world fell apart in one sentence, I thought it was a prank.

You were gone, departed from this world with no warning.

Shock kicked in, was the longest journey home in my life.

Later on it was denial, it can't be true, a sick joke,

You were fine, I was only speaking to you a fortnight prior.

Sadness then welcomed me, the tears did not stop,

So wallowed in sadness, time just lost all meaning.

Reality was the next step, entering your house,

The silence, you not there to greet me with a hug and kiss.

Numbness was next to greet me, nothing made sense any more,

What is the point, nothing would bring you back.

I felt lost and out of my comfort zone, very insecure,

That very moment was when I realised, part of me also died.

Life carries on so they say, expected to carry on like normal,

What people don't understand, nothing is ever text book simple.

Grief is an unpredictable thing, there were many things I partook in,

All of which not proud of, but it helped me on the next stage.

Acceptance being the final step, a step that took me four years to find,

I miss you like there's no tomorrow, but I had to eventually let go.

Now I have let go of the fact you have gone, everything I do is for your memory,

I hope you're proud of me, there are no words to describe how much I miss you.