I Made Myself Cry

Tonight,
I made myself cry..
I read through
Our old messages.. The oldest ones
From when we met a year ago, up til now.
I was breathless, what we had was
Something I believed that would never
Break and crumble.. Not even get a scratch
Nor crack..
 
I made myself cry by reading the
Creations we wrote, dreams we
Had, laughs we shared, and
The hopes we had for
Future times... I
Cried because that was
Something that was beautiful..
There was love and nothing but..
We talked from light til night..

I made myself cry,
Because I read everything more recent..
My heart tightened, and snapped within
My chest. I started wondering if
You still cared. If you ever thought
Of me like I did you when we slowly lost
Contact... Something changed..

I made myself cry, when I
Caught up with time..
I feel like I'm invisible
To your sight and the rest of
Your senses.. I feel
My heart die and disappear..
We fell apart, and I don't even
Know if you'll see this,
But I'm sorry.. I really am..

I made myself cry, because I realized,
I don't even know if you'll even
Read this all the way through..
But if you get to this part,
Just know I love you my friend..
I don't know what we are, but I will
Continue to care.. I don't know
If you still feel the same
After I'm to blame..
I'm truly sorry for whatever I've done..
I made myself cry because I
Still care, and you may not even anymore..