no mother

You gave birth to me.
I was your fifth child.
You gave us all up for drugs and sex.
How can you tell me you loved me when you were never there?
You only showed up to one visitation.
What does that show me?
That shows me you never cared.
People have told me that you had fought for me in court to keep your parental rights but why bother if you knew you were never going to be there.
Why did you give birth to me if you knew you couldn’t handle me?
You just gave me up so easily.
How could you do something like that to me?
The years went by and I barely saw you.
You were never there when i cried.
When I was hurt you weren’t there to give me love.
I got lost in the crowd.
I couldn’t find my way.
There was no one there to take my hand and lead me to the right path.
I started to get depressed.
I wasn’t happy.
I wanted you to see that I can be amazing.
I wanted to change your mind and have you come take me back.
What did I do to deserve this treatment from you?
If you never wanted me you should have just aborted me.
I can’t even say I love you mom because your one of the reasons why I’ve wanted to die.
You’ve killed me inside and now look at me.
You created a stone cold monster.