You and Me

I close my eyes, and I see you going away every night.
I wake up scared every morning,  but realising it cannot happen anymore,
I try to close my eyes again and wish to create the dream again.
I see you this time coming closer to me, much closer.
Holding me by my hand, licking the insides of my ears,
Clasping me tight to your bosom and not letting me go.
But, I fail to see further. I wake up with mom’s voice or some other.
I cannot recreate the bliss I crave for. It exists nowhere for me;
Not in reality, not in dreams, not even in crafted dreams.
Oh my love, come back. I crave for your touch on my cheek,
For your hug, your embrace, your bruised lips.
My tongue craves for that wild kiss. You were my life.
It has been years; I dated many but you were always in my memory.
I tried every now and then to replace you by others, but you did not let that happen.
I hated you because I knew you were a loser and could not fight the world for me.
I hated you for stepping back every time, I needed you.
I hated you for telling me how to lead my life your way.
Today, you have gone, but your memory survived.
My hatred for you is gone but love survived.
In the middle of friends, family and loved ones, I still feel alone.
Alone, because I crave for your company.
Come back and we will live happily.

But, will we live happily ever after?
I know you would not change but would want me to change.
Just like I would want you to change in letting me the way I am.
It would never work out. It will fail again.
Stay where you are. I am happy though unsatisfied now.