Anatomy of Murder

I parked, finally home, my wrist offered the time
Hours early to my girly, that was awfully prime
See my memory said to me fix up this rough patch
You gotta great girl in your world, and she's a tough catch
So my tongue did work and got work to end premature
I'm tryin to fix it, now baby girl will see for sure
No suspicion as I entered the wooden portal
But my intuition whispered something wasn't normal
It was my ears that delivered the first message
Caught off guard, didn't expect to find a cursed vestige
Don't wanna grasp with the facts, thought the past was the past
All the hard work I put in was trashed in a flash
My brain told my ears to relax, get the facts tight
After last night you're on edge, make sure to act right
Waited a moment, but my ears gave the same report
Still needed more evidence to give the claim support
But if it was true.....what to do? Walked to the kitchen
Couple shots to poison my liver, as is tradition
Liquid warmth hit my chest, climbed to defy gravity
Flied actually, melted my nerves quite maximally
A deep breath, lungs filled, I really don't need the stress
And if my ears are right.....this will be a heated mess
I crept slowly toward my point of interest
I grimaced, my stomach dropped at what I witnessed
At this moment in time all my fears occurred
My eyes corroborated what my ears had heard
How could she....my heart cracked and held for a moment
An old nightmare brought to life, unshelled and re-opened
The blood must have stopped, felt my heart flutter and fail
My soul left my body and was ushered to hell
My mind existed but was possessed by a demon
Planted an idea as a seed, professed as true reason
My hands took a gun from out of the cabinet
Knuckles white, gripped tight, so hard to even handle it
Image in my mind's eye, pulled shells off of the shelf
Quietly chambered a round, silent, part of my stealth
Pulled back the trigger, at this point forgotten all health
Doubt my girl or her lover thought I'd murder myself