Smile, Smile, Grin

i cringe
at the thought
of being alone
once again
trying to keep
this fake smile
glued to my face
as everyone leaves
my side      

keeping me helpless
keeping me sad
i being to sink into depression
hiding all my thoughts
behind an inoccent
smile
i am doomed to
hate and fear
all those things
that surrond me

all while hiding
a blade of my  
despair
tucked far down
my agony
and trying
to grin and bear it