Words from a Dead Husband

If you're reading this, my dearest wife
as you know I am with you no longer  
I can only hope my spirit might yet linger  
to make these words last for time enough
to ease the terrible guilt  
I realize you must feel  
 
Please do not think badly of me
On a perfect summer's day  
you may still sense me  
gently kissing your shadow  
or warming the chill in your bed  
through frozen nights  
of pillow hugging dread  
 
I have pledged  
to keep one eye on your soul  
always  
for that is my destiny now  
 
We traveled far together, my dear  
you and I were inseparable  
and infinite horizons  
could never quench our hearts  
 
How could I forget
the vision of you in a red silk dress  
tresses flowing
smiling like a proud princess  
as you plunged the knife
into the heart of this hapless fool  
I only strayed once from the path
but your revenge was swift and cruel  
 
You murdering bitch  
Thank fuck I'm up here  
with not a snowflake in hell's chance
you'll be following any time soon
 
It would need
one too many miracles  
to make an angel out of you
Your asshole was always
bigger than your mouth
you always were
a jealous crock of shitt